“What’s the point of being alive if you don’t at least try
to do something remarkable?”
-John Green
I found this quote swimming in the time-wasting sludge that
is the internet and I’ve decided that I like it. When I saw it, I thought, “that’s
what I want to do.” That’s what I’m going to do. But, unfortunately I had a
massive realization.
I have done absolutely nothing extraordinary in my life.
Usually, I’m of the assumption that I am rather above all
the idiots I feel I am surrounded by in most places I go. I’m constantly
pondering what I need to be and what I need to do, and somehow that makes me
feel like I am grander than everyone else.
But, the truth is, I have no idea what everyone around me is
thinking. I can’t assume that what’s happening in my head, coming out of my
mouth, or playing out on my face is anything more brilliant than those around
me.
I began to wonder if I have ever done anything that would
actually warrant my holier-than-thou outlook on the world. Okay…I sound like a
total snob now. But, I don’t know if my recognizing my snotty-ness makes me
more or less so. But that’s too much to think about.
Again, back to the point I was trying to make. What have I
ever done that is extraordinary? Have I ever achieved anything that would
actually set me apart from my peers in the real world? I’ve decided to take a
glimpse at everything I’ve done and everything I considered an accomplishment.
None of the things I came up with have helped save a life or
made one better. They were just certificates or publications that really only
matter to me. And I don’t feel that it really falls into the category of “something
remarkable”
How about you? Do you feel that you have done something remarkable
in your life? Pursued something you had always dreamed of or created something wonderful?
And if not, why? And is doing the remarkable something you
want to pursue?
Those are all the questions I’m asking myself, and trudging along
trying to find answers to. It’s especially telling though, that all of these
questions are yes or no, supposedly the simplest type of question, but they
seem so gosh darn difficult.
